Thursday, January 22, 2015

blue danube

Target denim blouse, Boohoo skirt,  Lovisa headband, Kmart shoes

Hello internet! Aside from my wildy blue toned outfit and girlie makeup (which I was very happy with!), here's a few other things I wanted to share with you all... 
  • While unpacking a few of the things that seemed to have been neglected in the garage of our house since we moved out, I found quite a gem. A CD with all the classical waltz songs I loved when I was a child, hence the reference to one of Strauss' best pieces in the title of this post (and it also refers to my outfit too). Blue Danube brings a lot of happy memories for me. 
  • One day I hope to dance to said waltz with 'The One'... hehe.
  • Some exciting news! A week ago I received my official acceptance letter from the University of Queensland! Woohoo! I am officially a student again. It's a wonderful feeling as I'm eager to start learning about something I'm actually really passionate about. Should be moving to Brisbane in a few weeks, there's just a few of financial matters to tend to first. I start in March, so it's approaching very soon!
  • I turn 18 in just over a month! I'm very excited about becoming an official adult. 
  • Last night I finished The Selection series by Keira Cass. Oh my goodness. It was so bittersweet; the ending was just impeccable and I won't shy away from the tears that were shed over the beautiful conclusion to it all. If you haven't read it - I highly recommend you do. It's addictive and so wonderfully written and put together. 
  • Thank you for the incredible feeback about the recent post about bad days. I was so happy to have helped so many of you and it made it that much better. 
Anyway, I'm surprised I'm even functioning and writing coherently at all at this hour. I just finished a five hour shift and cannot wait to nestle myself into my fluffy bed and listen to the rain outside as it sends me to sleep. Goodnight lovers... xo
P.S: What do you think of the new blog header? I'm so happy with it! 

Monday, January 19, 2015

How to: survive after a bad day

...or, pull yourself up and out of the "depths of despair", gently tend to emotional wounds and be yourself again. The wonderful you that was put on this earth with a purpose and for a reason. 

So, you've had one of those days. You lost your wallet, someone was rude/ hurt your feelings, you're boyfriend/girlfriend broke up with you, you didn't get the dream job, you were fired from your job. Or maybe you're feeling under the weather. Or maybe all of those things happened to you in the space of 24 hours. If so, my condolences you poor, poor soul, but I assure you, if you can make it to the next sunrise, you can survive anything and I tip my beret to you. 

Today, was a bad day for me. I lost my bank card, people in my local township were even more rude than usual, and I just felt awful about myself - like I had hit some all-time-low in the history of "Maria's All-Time-Lows". In desperation and mid-mental-breakdown, I phoned my oldest sister who is a highly intellectual individual and wise human being (I hope she knows how much she has taught me). Three things were pointed out of the 15 minute phone call after my tears had subsided and I regained my senses:

1. It's okay to be sad, but you can't prolong it. You have to snap out of it, pull yourself up after the fall and carry on. 
2. "To the mattresses!". It's not personal, it's strictly business. Wise words from The Godfather. 
3. This is temporary. Everything is temporary. Bad shit, good shit. IT'S ALL TEMPORARY. You just have to make the most of the good shit, and learn how to deal with the bad shit. 

I'm gonna quickly address each of these individually in hopes that it will not only help me clarify and clear a few things out in my cluttered head, but to help some of you too. I know for a fact that I wasn't the only one who suffered from a mental breakdown today. There are 7 billion peeps on the planet, after all. 

1. SNAP OUT OF IT. (Casual sneaky AM reference there...)
Being sad sucks, but sometimes we humans find a silver lining, and that is self-pity, which can become a habit. Don't fall into the trap of letting sadness become a constant, easy option. Letting yourself mope and sit in your room all day with a book and "alone time" is totally fine every once in a while but don't let it define your lifestyle. It's not going to make things better. Pull yourself up and out! Breathe in the fresh air. Move your body. Have a good nights sleep (that one is SO important - I know for a fact sleeping/ not sleeping can make/ break me). Be brave. Pull yourself together! It's not the end of the world. Things are hard right now but in a few years time you're going to look back and say "Wow. Go me. I did something my past self is thanking my present/future self for". 

Prepare for battle! In the morning when you're dressing yourself, use it as a metaphor for strong, steel armor that's going to rebound the arrows, bullets and spears of negativity and harm coming your way. When people you don't know find a reason to dislike you, you need to realize it's completely and totally their own problem. As a person, the only way you can make it through life without criticism is to say nothing, do nothing, be nothing. Elbert Hubbard is keepin' it real by stating that. No matter what you do, someone is going to find a way to criticize it, and sometimes not in the friendly, constructive way, but in the spiteful way that ONLY reflects the insecurities and self destruction that is going on in their head. 

Remind yourself this, "It's not personal. It's business". People don't know any damn better! You do you. Float your own boat. You know who you are. My Mum is always reminding me of the same quote she's lived by her whole life. "Love many, trust a few, always paddle your own canoe". You know who you are. You know the truth, and you are under no obligation to be the same person you were five minutes ago. If you've done something wrong, fix it! Learn from it. You're human. Sometimes you have to just put yourself first. Put yourself first over silly, immature friendships that hold you back. Put your happiness in priority because that's important and you're important. You don't have to be arrogant and self-obsessed to have confidence and self-respect and love. 

"Isn't it funny how day by day nothing changes, but when you look back, everything is different...". 
I thought I would have C.S Lewis be the opening line for three reasons: he's a bloody legend, he was responsible for the sweet, fantasy driven dreams of my childhood, and because he's wise and right. Everything is temporary. Sadness is temporary. You're not always going to be like this (unless you choose to be...), and it's really important to understand this, especially when life throws lemons at you super hard and you're kinda knocked out and sore. The same goes for being happy too... and the trick is to enjoy it, make the most of it and revel in the opportunity for inspiration and productivity. One of my favourite youtubers, Connor Manning, elaborates on this very eloquently here


{This beautiful, poetic and reassuring print available from this little Etsy store}

OKAY. So, now that we've gotten all that deep stuff out and you've had some time to think about it, it's time for a few of my tips/ favorite things to do when I'm feeling like absolute crap and it's been one of those days... or weeks. Because hey, it happens and sometimes no matter how hard we try, lemons are just super duper in season and life has a lot to throw. 

1. Music. 
My mood is very easily swayed depending on the music I listen to. For example, if I'm feeling super romantic, then Otis Redding's "These Arms of Mine", is a winner. If I am feeling like I need to test the limits of my vocals, then Ariana Grande has been cranked up to full volume, or perhaps my rapping abilities, Childish Gambino. And if sadness is kicking in, then I tend to head towards some of Elvis Presley's moodier ballads
Bottom line, I recommend listening to your favourite "happy music". Have a playlist ready for the days when you're feeling low and in need of the support of sound and I promise it'll help. 

2. Talking/ asking for help 
“Nothing is worth more than laughter. It is strength to laug and to abandon oneself, to be light. Tragedy is the most ridiculous thing.” Frida Kahlo (and Chavela Vargas)
There's seriously nothing wrong with asking for help, talking out your problems. Sometimes when people get into the habit of bottling things up, it gets harder and harder to ask for help. Trust me when I say that it helps immensely if you share what is bothering you with someone you trust. Not only can they offer advice, understand and empathy but the conversation could easily turn and you could share a laugh (which is a brilliant medicine on its own). 

3. Write a list. Make a plan. 
Relevant to the words from The Godfather - battle stations! Make a plan of attack. How are you gonna improve your situation? How are you gonna improve it? Sleep me? Check. Save more? Check. Cut out the negativity and the people in your life that are not worth your time? Check. 

4. Chill the f*#! out! 
Make a hot chocolate. Settle down for a temporary escape into the world of good literature, or good TV. Sometimes all you need is a little battery recharge and you're good to go. 

5. Source hope and inspiration
These videos have been especially helpful and inspiring lately: wise words from Katie about staying true to yourself and the important of self-love and respect, here, here, and here. Basically anything from Connor's channel is enough to get me through a tough day. 

Well, that concludes my little spiel. I hope it helped you. It helped me because I've never elaborated on something so concisely before. My head was a mess before I sat down to write this, and at the moment, I've polished off a second cup of rooibos and I'm feeling immaculately lighter and hopeful. Much less overwhelmed too. I hope you're okay, stay strong and lots of love. xoxo

Disclaimer: This post was simply meant to be a little guide/ advice. I'm no medical professional and I don't claim to be. If you're feeling sad or depressed and it's becoming too overwhelming for you to cope, I suggest the Kids Helpline on 1800 55 1800 (AUS) or seeing your local GP for counselling or therapy advice. Remember that you're not alone and you can make it through this :) 

All images, unless otherwise stated, were sourced from Tumblr. 

Saturday, January 10, 2015

"Be the change..." // hello 2015!

Hi, hello! It's my first post for 2015 which is both very humbling (I've been at this blogging thing for nearly half a decade...), and very exciting! Today my sister and I decided to spice up our regular bike ride with a backpack filled with makeup, clothes, my camera and some picnic refreshment to take photos at an "out of the ordinary" location. It was a lot of fun and we both came home feeling pretty great about our independent expedition!

What's in stall for everyone this year? To me, 2015 is terrifying and exciting all wrapped up into one. It's all about "change". For me, my environment and life. I'm planning on moving out of home in a few weeks to study at a university in the city and it's going to be quite the change from my sheltered life under a suburbia roof. I'm going to miss my friends, aspects of this town that I live in and my family, but I think it's time for independence and change. I'll keep you posted, Avenue Maria may not be updated as regularly but I've decided to keep this blog running until I'm 100, then I can do a post posing with my letter from the Queen in the snazziest nursing home ever.
Talk soon xo

Sunday, December 21, 2014

rosey posey // summertime happiness

- Handmade top, thrifted skirt, Corelli shoes, Oasap sunglasses -

Seasons greetings! There's less than five days until Christmas and I am well and truly behind in the carol blaring, Christmas cookie baking and present buying/ wrapping. Aside from working (which I would rather not talk about and pretend doesn't exist), I have been spending time with my family, shopping and finally reaching the stage where I am genuinely happy and relieved that school is finished forever and I can revel in the freedom of choosing my pathway in life. Yesterday I received my OP rank and although the whole system is completely useless and only serves as a temporary entry ticket into university (as well as a bid to make the school you went to look good - thanks for all that unnecessary pressure SJC!), I am still proud of my single digit result and it's usefulness in allowing me entry into all of the courses that I applied for. Woo!

I'm still pretty unsure of what next year holds education and work wise, but I do know that it's going to be wonderful. Whatever it is. Something I learned in 2014 is that I do underestimate my ability quite a lot, and there is power in positive thinking. Basically my goals include: getting my driver's license, a car and to be happy. Oh! And some form of romance would be good... but there's no hurry, I am an independent woman after all!

As you've probably noticed, my hair is quite short! I got the chop recently and it is honestly one of the best feelings ever! So fresh and bouncy! Although it looked much better on the day of the cut and blow dry, I still love the length and the lack of split ends. I highly recommend The French Touch hair and beauty salon if you're ever on the Sunshine Coast and need a good hair cut or whatever. 
I best be off, I think I'll watch Maleficent tonight with a big cup of rooibos tea and my plush elephant, Heather, whom I bought today because I was cranky and needed a hug. Hope you're all well. Merry Christmas xo

Wednesday, November 26, 2014

fork in the road // reflection

Hello internet! It's definitely been a while and I must say, the blogging world has been sorely missed. I'm not sure whether or not I should refer to myself as a blogger anymore either - I spend more time reading other blogs than I do actually writing and coming up with content for my own! Nevertheless, it's nice to be writing again. In the last month, many things have happened. Life changing things. Less than a week ago, I graduated high school. This is something I'm still trying to wrap my head around, as it was one of the most surreal experiences of my life. On Friday night, I put on my beautiful blue formal dress, stood up on a stage in front of 500 people and accepted the paper certificate that solidifies the completion of twelve years of schooling. Yet, I feel nothing... no emotion, only denial; still in the head space that in late January of 2015, I'll be packing my school bag and walking up the school hill, ready for another year of shenanigans with my peers. Graduation was so much fun, and it was lovely spending the last few days of school (FOREVER!) with my friends, reflecting on the last eight years we have spent together. 

The scary thing about graduating is that you spend such a long time looking forward to it, and time seems to go so slowly, but then it finally comes around, and time speeds up, and before you know it, you've finished and it's like, "Wait.. what?! I wasn't even ready!". 
I'm excited for the future though... I turn eighteen in a few months, I'm hoping to move away to the city to study of Bachelor of Arts (which will hopefully lead me abroad) and I'm just excited. This week has been incredibly up-and-down emotionally (on Saturday morning I took one look at my hairspray drenched curls, realized I had finished school and burst into tears... yeah), but I feel like things are starting to balance out. It's weird heading to work instead of heading to school. And it's weird not seeing so many familiar faces every day. 

Another thing I'm excited about now that I'm "out of school" is the prospect of having more freedom. Romantically as well. There's so many more beautiful young men to choose from now! There's room for a boy in my life now, and I'm also "ready" for romance now too! I don't like to stereotype high school boys, but the majority of them are quite immature and I've never had any success with them in the past. In a way, it's definitely put me at an advantage because it's helped shape who I am, made my choices a lot smarter and I know how I should be treated, and if that's not being presented, then that's it. The same goes for all relationships in my life I think... something I've learnt during high school is that I deserve to be treated a certain way and if "friends" aren't treating me well, helping me grow and helping me become the person I'm meant to be, they don't belong in my life. 
(Luckily, I'm surrounding by the absolute best friends any girl could ask for however, and we're actually planning a road trip in the next few weeks to Byron Bay - which should be AMAZING, since I haven't been there yet!) 

It's almost midnight now though, so I should wrap things up. Basically, the moral of the story is: I've graduated high school... I'm terrified of the future, I'm also very excited about the future and I'll keep you posted. 
Have a lovely night/ day wherever you are on this earth! xo