Wednesday, February 25, 2015

quick life update // moving out of home


Greetings, internet! A lot of "life" has happened since the last update a few weeks ago and as always, it's nice to sit down and write about it all. I don't even know where to start! On Sunday I moved out of home. The whole arrangement was a little bit rushed and disorganized and I didn't do as much preparation as I initially thought I would do. The whole homesickness thing didn't kick in until that night when I realized that everything was real; I wasn't going to see my Mum every day, I had bills to pay, I was on my own with that kinda stuff. After a few tears, I snapped out of it and mentally prepared myself for university the next day, the start of O week. 

A lot of things went wrong, which was to be expected. I caught the wrong bus, was yelled at by a bus driver, it started raining as I was walking to a bus stop (seriously the cherry on top), I had no idea what was going on half the time, my student ID is seriously the funniest photo ever (I look like a little rat) and it basically reminded me of the first day of year 8. I didn't cry until after 4 o'clock though which is such an amazing achievement on my part because I'm already an emotional person, but if I'm tired too than it's a mess. Good things happened too, though. My first impression of the university was absolutely amazing. UQ looks like Hogwarts and it's so beautiful and picturesque and I feel lucky to be going there. There is also an abundance of really nice people too, I've made so many new friends already that I can tell will be the life-long kind. The boys as well, wow. Just wow - absolutely stunning creatures. At the end of the day, it was my older sister Rosey who got me through and made things bearable. I was absolutely ravaged of all energy and she took me back to her house and let me have a nice soothing shower, light a scented candle and give me a few birthday presents for the next day. It reminded me a lot of how Maria helps Liesl in Sound of Music. 

Anyway, things did progressively improve. I had a lovely 18th birthday and was spoiled rotten by my friends and my roomies (who are lovely to live with) on Tuesday. Today, was market day and I got an awesome henna tattoo! I'm exhausted though and looking forward to heading home for a short visit home tomorrow. 
I think I made the right decision moving to Brisbane, still absolutely terrified about money and study (hoping I have what it takes), but I LOVE IT. I love the university with all of my heart, it's everything I hoped it would be. The social aspect is going wonderfully too, I've just met so many lovely people! Moving out has been a milestone for me, and I think it's only going to get better. I'm really proud of myself but I have a lot of people to thank as well. Basically anyone who has shown some sort of support has been a life saver. Thank you. I'll be back soon xxx

Sunday, February 08, 2015

life through the lens #8

Making the most of my lovely little familiar space before moving away. I intend to make my room in Brisbane look just as much like a sanctuary as my "home" one does // Signature scents, both from Lancome // Serene summer sunsets // Out for breakfast at Miss Moneypenny's - one of my new favourite places in Noosa.

Hello! So the last few weeks have been a total whirlwind and it's lovely to be sitting down, putting my fingers to the computer keys, listening to Sia's new album and sharing some thoughts.
  • I'm officially moving out of home in just under two weeks! I checked out my accommodation this weekend and it's lovely. A cute little two-storey cottage that has a warm, nest-like feeling to it and the people are friendly and I think it's going to work out wonderfully. 
  • University starts in March and I'm studying Political Science! I'm jubilant about my course as I've only heard great things about it and I'm feeling excited and ready to learn again. Especially because this is something I am genuinely passionate about. 
  • I bought a bike for Brisbane too recently! After weeks of driving the local bike shop owners bonkers with my indecisive-ness, I finally bit the bullet and bought a lovely cruiser that will probably be delivered this week. 
  • I got a piercing!!! I'm not the most rebellious teenager, but over the last few years I have accumulated a number of piercings and now have seven in total, three in a row on my lobes and a helix on my right ear. It hurt quite a lot in comparison to the previous three but I think it looks great and going with my friend Abbey softened the blow quite a bit. 
  • Lately, with all the cleaning out for my big move in two weeks time I've been finding a lot of old blogging props/ things including beautiful flower crowns from my shoots in 2013. It's really made me appreciate my hobby of blogging and how far it's taken me in my life. Although now it's more of a side hobby, I still love it and it's always there if I need to feed my creative flair. 
  • As mentioned above, I also found my MOO business cards! I got them custom made a few months ago and I remember how impressed I was with the quality - if any of you are looking for a good business card site, I would recommend MOO highly. Designing your cards is actually super fun. 
 Two of my favourite cafes on the Sunshine Coast: The Poet's Cafe in Montville is completely divine and is nestled beautifully amongst trees and nature, and the Silva Spoon in Cotton Tree which is a tea-lovers heaven with beautiful food and homewares. 

I'll definitely miss the spontaneous adventuring that I've been doing where I live. 

Do I look like a dorky undergraduate yet?

You know that post I did recently about having a bad day / not feeling yourself (click here)? Well, I just wanna thank you guys, because the support is still coming through my email inbox and it's awesome. Lately, there's been a lot of ups and downs and whenever I'm feeling even a little hopeless or victimized, I've actually been reading that post and taking my own advice for once and it's working. I'm not saying the next few months are going to be easy... because moving away from home is terrifying and a massive leap into the unknown, but I'm equipped and I'm ready, you know? It's time to start living! 
It's time to start the life that I was meant to live after high school. Now that I've finished school, goals and aspirations are so clear and bright. My self esteem and respect as increased because I think for myself and my health and well-being now. I'm trying not to let people/ things hurt me the way I used to. It's a really good, empowering feeling. There's really no time for negativity. It just doesn't fit, it doesn't belong. Of course it's gonna happen, but I think the most incredible thing I've realized is that I can work on reducing it. 

Best of luck with your futures, too. Bottom line: DO WHAT IS BEST FOR YOU. Have an awesome week and I'll keep you posted with what's happening with my big move!! xo

Sunday, February 01, 2015


 Basque top, Portmans skirt, Payless heels, Bobbi Brown lipstick in "Raisin Berry", Dissh double pearl earrings 

....featuring a brand new 'do!

Happy Sunday everyone! Hope your weekend has been relaxing and enjoyable so far - I definitely needed the break after such a hectic week of work and university organisation stress. I hadn't had a hair cut since the start of December so I thought it was well overdue, so I booked it for Saturday and had been looking forward to getting a "fresh cut" all week. I got a lot more hair off this time and I'm so glad I did because not only does it feel healthier and lighter, but the length is so easy to maintain. My hair is very curly if there isn't very much of it, so the curls are really defined and bouncy as opposed to the stringy mess it was prior to the cut!
And how impossibly beautiful is this skirt? It was an absolute steal at Portmans; I got it for $30 instead of $90 and it's so pretty and reminds me of a mermaid tail. I paired it with a simple white cotton top because I think it deserves to shine on its own.
I hope you're all well... xo

Currently listening to: Getcha Back - The Beach Boys

Thursday, January 22, 2015

blue danube

Target denim blouse, Boohoo skirt,  Lovisa headband, Kmart shoes

Hello internet! Aside from my wildy blue toned outfit and girlie makeup (which I was very happy with!), here's a few other things I wanted to share with you all... 
  • While unpacking a few of the things that seemed to have been neglected in the garage of our house since we moved out, I found quite a gem. A CD with all the classical waltz songs I loved when I was a child, hence the reference to one of Strauss' best pieces in the title of this post (and it also refers to my outfit too). Blue Danube brings a lot of happy memories for me. 
  • One day I hope to dance to said waltz with 'The One'... hehe.
  • Some exciting news! A week ago I received my official acceptance letter from the University of Queensland! Woohoo! I am officially a student again. It's a wonderful feeling as I'm eager to start learning about something I'm actually really passionate about. Should be moving to Brisbane in a few weeks, there's just a few of financial matters to tend to first. I start in March, so it's approaching very soon!
  • I turn 18 in just over a month! I'm very excited about becoming an official adult. 
  • Last night I finished The Selection series by Keira Cass. Oh my goodness. It was so bittersweet; the ending was just impeccable and I won't shy away from the tears that were shed over the beautiful conclusion to it all. If you haven't read it - I highly recommend you do. It's addictive and so wonderfully written and put together. 
  • Thank you for the incredible feeback about the recent post about bad days. I was so happy to have helped so many of you and it made it that much better. 
Anyway, I'm surprised I'm even functioning and writing coherently at all at this hour. I just finished a five hour shift and cannot wait to nestle myself into my fluffy bed and listen to the rain outside as it sends me to sleep. Goodnight lovers... xo
P.S: What do you think of the new blog header? I'm so happy with it! 

Monday, January 19, 2015

How to: survive after a bad day

...or, pull yourself up and out of the "depths of despair", gently tend to emotional wounds and be yourself again. The wonderful you that was put on this earth with a purpose and for a reason. 

So, you've had one of those days. You lost your wallet, someone was rude/ hurt your feelings, you're boyfriend/girlfriend broke up with you, you didn't get the dream job, you were fired from your job. Or maybe you're feeling under the weather. Or maybe all of those things happened to you in the space of 24 hours. If so, my condolences you poor, poor soul, but I assure you, if you can make it to the next sunrise, you can survive anything and I tip my beret to you. 

Today, was a bad day for me. I lost my bank card, people in my local township were even more rude than usual, and I just felt awful about myself - like I had hit some all-time-low in the history of "Maria's All-Time-Lows". In desperation and mid-mental-breakdown, I phoned my oldest sister who is a highly intellectual individual and wise human being (I hope she knows how much she has taught me). Three things were pointed out of the 15 minute phone call after my tears had subsided and I regained my senses:

1. It's okay to be sad, but you can't prolong it. You have to snap out of it, pull yourself up after the fall and carry on. 
2. "To the mattresses!". It's not personal, it's strictly business. Wise words from The Godfather. 
3. This is temporary. Everything is temporary. Bad shit, good shit. IT'S ALL TEMPORARY. You just have to make the most of the good shit, and learn how to deal with the bad shit. 

I'm gonna quickly address each of these individually in hopes that it will not only help me clarify and clear a few things out in my cluttered head, but to help some of you too. I know for a fact that I wasn't the only one who suffered from a mental breakdown today. There are 7 billion peeps on the planet, after all. 

1. SNAP OUT OF IT. (Casual sneaky AM reference there...)
Being sad sucks, but sometimes we humans find a silver lining, and that is self-pity, which can become a habit. Don't fall into the trap of letting sadness become a constant, easy option. Letting yourself mope and sit in your room all day with a book and "alone time" is totally fine every once in a while but don't let it define your lifestyle. It's not going to make things better. Pull yourself up and out! Breathe in the fresh air. Move your body. Have a good nights sleep (that one is SO important - I know for a fact sleeping/ not sleeping can make/ break me). Be brave. Pull yourself together! It's not the end of the world. Things are hard right now but in a few years time you're going to look back and say "Wow. Go me. I did something my past self is thanking my present/future self for". 

Prepare for battle! In the morning when you're dressing yourself, use it as a metaphor for strong, steel armor that's going to rebound the arrows, bullets and spears of negativity and harm coming your way. When people you don't know find a reason to dislike you, you need to realize it's completely and totally their own problem. As a person, the only way you can make it through life without criticism is to say nothing, do nothing, be nothing. Elbert Hubbard is keepin' it real by stating that. No matter what you do, someone is going to find a way to criticize it, and sometimes not in the friendly, constructive way, but in the spiteful way that ONLY reflects the insecurities and self destruction that is going on in their head. 

Remind yourself this, "It's not personal. It's business". People don't know any damn better! You do you. Float your own boat. You know who you are. My Mum is always reminding me of the same quote she's lived by her whole life. "Love many, trust a few, always paddle your own canoe". You know who you are. You know the truth, and you are under no obligation to be the same person you were five minutes ago. If you've done something wrong, fix it! Learn from it. You're human. Sometimes you have to just put yourself first. Put yourself first over silly, immature friendships that hold you back. Put your happiness in priority because that's important and you're important. You don't have to be arrogant and self-obsessed to have confidence and self-respect and love. 

"Isn't it funny how day by day nothing changes, but when you look back, everything is different...". 
I thought I would have C.S Lewis be the opening line for three reasons: he's a bloody legend, he was responsible for the sweet, fantasy driven dreams of my childhood, and because he's wise and right. Everything is temporary. Sadness is temporary. You're not always going to be like this (unless you choose to be...), and it's really important to understand this, especially when life throws lemons at you super hard and you're kinda knocked out and sore. The same goes for being happy too... and the trick is to enjoy it, make the most of it and revel in the opportunity for inspiration and productivity. One of my favourite youtubers, Connor Manning, elaborates on this very eloquently here


{This beautiful, poetic and reassuring print available from this little Etsy store}

OKAY. So, now that we've gotten all that deep stuff out and you've had some time to think about it, it's time for a few of my tips/ favorite things to do when I'm feeling like absolute crap and it's been one of those days... or weeks. Because hey, it happens and sometimes no matter how hard we try, lemons are just super duper in season and life has a lot to throw. 

1. Music. 
My mood is very easily swayed depending on the music I listen to. For example, if I'm feeling super romantic, then Otis Redding's "These Arms of Mine", is a winner. If I am feeling like I need to test the limits of my vocals, then Ariana Grande has been cranked up to full volume, or perhaps my rapping abilities, Childish Gambino. And if sadness is kicking in, then I tend to head towards some of Elvis Presley's moodier ballads
Bottom line, I recommend listening to your favourite "happy music". Have a playlist ready for the days when you're feeling low and in need of the support of sound and I promise it'll help. 

2. Talking/ asking for help 
“Nothing is worth more than laughter. It is strength to laug and to abandon oneself, to be light. Tragedy is the most ridiculous thing.” Frida Kahlo (and Chavela Vargas)
There's seriously nothing wrong with asking for help, talking out your problems. Sometimes when people get into the habit of bottling things up, it gets harder and harder to ask for help. Trust me when I say that it helps immensely if you share what is bothering you with someone you trust. Not only can they offer advice, understand and empathy but the conversation could easily turn and you could share a laugh (which is a brilliant medicine on its own). 

3. Write a list. Make a plan. 
Relevant to the words from The Godfather - battle stations! Make a plan of attack. How are you gonna improve your situation? How are you gonna improve it? Sleep me? Check. Save more? Check. Cut out the negativity and the people in your life that are not worth your time? Check. 

4. Chill the f*#! out! 
Make a hot chocolate. Settle down for a temporary escape into the world of good literature, or good TV. Sometimes all you need is a little battery recharge and you're good to go. 

5. Source hope and inspiration
These videos have been especially helpful and inspiring lately: wise words from Katie about staying true to yourself and the important of self-love and respect, here, here, and here. Basically anything from Connor's channel is enough to get me through a tough day. 

Well, that concludes my little spiel. I hope it helped you. It helped me because I've never elaborated on something so concisely before. My head was a mess before I sat down to write this, and at the moment, I've polished off a second cup of rooibos and I'm feeling immaculately lighter and hopeful. Much less overwhelmed too. I hope you're okay, stay strong and lots of love. xoxo

Disclaimer: This post was simply meant to be a little guide/ advice. I'm no medical professional and I don't claim to be. If you're feeling sad or depressed and it's becoming too overwhelming for you to cope, I suggest the Kids Helpline on 1800 55 1800 (AUS) or seeing your local GP for counselling or therapy advice. Remember that you're not alone and you can make it through this :) 

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